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Apr. 20th, 2007 06:04 pmI have tried to pay attention to lj recently, but just haven't quite been able to make myself. That whole "concentration" thing alludes me these days.
I still have to respond to my being tagged by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
inkbot, but haven't been able to sit and think that long.
Last night I had to bad dreams, both involving phone calls, sorta. One, I had a camera, a large camera with a large lens that was also a phone and cb. While I was messing with it, I heard a voice, I could not tell if it was a phone call I accidently picked up or if it was a cb signal. The voice sounded familiar but it was broken and static-y. Not being familiar with the device, while trying to get the call in better and figure out whether it was from the cb or the phone I lost the call and any ability to figure out who it was from. But it had sounded like my sister, saying something "she wants you to come to breakfast on saturday." I knew she must be talking about my mom. In my dream I still lived near home but hadn't contacted my family in over 3 days. The dream was inexplicably creepy feeling. Like an ominous omen. The call coming in in a strange, vague manner and only being able to hear a bit about saturday morning left me with that uncomfortable feeling something bad was going to happen by saturday morning.
2nd - I was at someone else's house, I can't remember whose or why. The phone rang and woke me from a groggy nap. Not completely awake, I thought I heard someone leave a message on the machine, but I couldn't make out anything. I only noticed breathing and noises. It left me with a worried feeling so I tried to wake myself up a bit to listen to the message. When I woke up, I realized I wasn't even sure if I should be where I was let alone checking messages, so I didn't check it. Then the phone rang again. I debated picking up and decided that would be a bad idea, especially since I had remembered I was currently suffering from laryngitis and they wouldn't hear anything I tried to say anyway. But when the machine picked up, I heard again what I thought I had heard while sleeping - breathing, gasping someone trying to talk but unable. It was glaringly obvious it was the sound of a girl who was attacked, possibly still being attacked, trying to call for help. I didn't know if she was calling this number on purpose, but had done so twice, so I was assuming yes. I made a desperate decision to pick up the phone and try to talk to her. I couldn't just sit there and listen. I tried to tell her to try to get out one word, just one word that would give me a clue as to where she was or anything she would want me to know. But, of course, nothing but air and squeaks came out. I desperately wanted to tell her to hang up and call 911 so they could trace the call and go to her. I couldn't say anything to her, she couldn't say anything to me and I didn't know if she was calling from a cell phone and that 911 would not be able to locate her anyway.
Yeah.
I still haven't motivated myself to leave the house and hunt down food yet today. I have to make myself do that so I have time to come home and shower before work.
I still have to respond to my being tagged by
inkbot, but haven't been able to sit and think that long. Last night I had to bad dreams, both involving phone calls, sorta. One, I had a camera, a large camera with a large lens that was also a phone and cb. While I was messing with it, I heard a voice, I could not tell if it was a phone call I accidently picked up or if it was a cb signal. The voice sounded familiar but it was broken and static-y. Not being familiar with the device, while trying to get the call in better and figure out whether it was from the cb or the phone I lost the call and any ability to figure out who it was from. But it had sounded like my sister, saying something "she wants you to come to breakfast on saturday." I knew she must be talking about my mom. In my dream I still lived near home but hadn't contacted my family in over 3 days. The dream was inexplicably creepy feeling. Like an ominous omen. The call coming in in a strange, vague manner and only being able to hear a bit about saturday morning left me with that uncomfortable feeling something bad was going to happen by saturday morning.
2nd - I was at someone else's house, I can't remember whose or why. The phone rang and woke me from a groggy nap. Not completely awake, I thought I heard someone leave a message on the machine, but I couldn't make out anything. I only noticed breathing and noises. It left me with a worried feeling so I tried to wake myself up a bit to listen to the message. When I woke up, I realized I wasn't even sure if I should be where I was let alone checking messages, so I didn't check it. Then the phone rang again. I debated picking up and decided that would be a bad idea, especially since I had remembered I was currently suffering from laryngitis and they wouldn't hear anything I tried to say anyway. But when the machine picked up, I heard again what I thought I had heard while sleeping - breathing, gasping someone trying to talk but unable. It was glaringly obvious it was the sound of a girl who was attacked, possibly still being attacked, trying to call for help. I didn't know if she was calling this number on purpose, but had done so twice, so I was assuming yes. I made a desperate decision to pick up the phone and try to talk to her. I couldn't just sit there and listen. I tried to tell her to try to get out one word, just one word that would give me a clue as to where she was or anything she would want me to know. But, of course, nothing but air and squeaks came out. I desperately wanted to tell her to hang up and call 911 so they could trace the call and go to her. I couldn't say anything to her, she couldn't say anything to me and I didn't know if she was calling from a cell phone and that 911 would not be able to locate her anyway.
Yeah.
I still haven't motivated myself to leave the house and hunt down food yet today. I have to make myself do that so I have time to come home and shower before work.
